Why do I feel the need to drown my sorrows in alcohol? Why does it have to be VSOP Rémy Martin or Hennessy? Why do I smoke high grade cannabis to fade my pain into blackness? Why does it have to be so strong and stink?
Living life, I've come to learn and understand that no one is to blame for my short comings other than me. I am the reason why my life is the way it is because it's not about what you go through, it's about how you go through it. It's about your decision making and how you respond to temptations and other obstacles in life. How can I take appraisal and congrats for my good decisions but not take responsibility and blame for my bad ones? Rightfully, I am my biggest critic, my biggest fan, and my biggest hater. I am my only competition.I am only as strong as my weakness.
But who am I? Am I really this person who drinks "yak" and smokes "Loud"? Am I really this person who breaks the hearts of women with my infidelities? Am I really this person who resorted to the streets for money when I had no job? Where did I get the impression that cognac and marijuana could make my unfavorable situations any better? Who told me that it was "cool" or all right to entertain multiple women? Who showed me that drugs equals fast money? Could it have been the media?
Truthfully, I've come to understand that the media is not made for information but rather for indoctrination. From the fruitless, futile TV shows broadcasted to hundreds of millions of people, to the excessively violent, and sexually explicit video games played by little children and adults worldwide , to the graphic brutality on YouTube videos, to the trivial, grotesque characters and scenes depicted in movies, it's clear and noticeable that the media has a dark, deep, and definite influence on the mass. A report from the Nielsen Company revealed that in 2016, the average American spent about 10 hours and 39 minutes each and every day digesting media.
I strongly believe that the media is the reason society is the way it is. Clearly, you wouldn't care to buy Jordan's or nikes if they weren't glamorized by amusing commercials and worn by other notable people. Clearly, you wouldn't want an iPhone if it weren't for apples crafty marketing schemes and seeing it in the hands of everyone with at least one hand (Lol). It's evident than people don't want to feel left out. Everyone wants to feel like they're "popping" which is understandable, but not with the sacrifice of originality. My desire to find my true self and break away from the conformity of social "norms" and society as a whole has lead me to The Intellect Neglected (TIN). I may not be perfect but I'm worth it, and if you made it this far, truly you are too.
Peace, Blessings, and Love to all!